This isn't very fun

It’s definitely hard to describe exactly the nips at my toes telling me to run to a remote village thousands of miles away where people have less but stress is largely absent. Because really, what a joke it is to see sad tired faces at our library (I am one of them!) slaving away on expensive laptops, living on coffee and hundreds of paper and digital pages.
People outside of this bubble will agree that this isn’t easy, but it still feels over-indulgent to worry, and to think that bad things will happen if I don’t spend enough time in the library, to complain.
I don’t want to complain, but it’s hard to stop.
It isn’t that I’m particularly worried about grades, the grand outcome of all of this work, of my past four months. And I really do think that there’s enough time to prepare, that I will be ready. It’s just that school has converted me into something completely one-dimensional. I’m doing the same thing all day every day for hours on hours and if my mother’s admonition were true, my eyes would definitely be rectangular by now.
My outlines and this material are my whole life and I worked so hard all semester to prevent it!
12 days, and I’ll stop complaining. To all who have to hear it, I thank you.